Like all children, I know I was born confident, fearless, and full of zeal to live. However, the environment that I grew up in made me develop a worry habit. First, it was death. My society depicted death as something worth causing shivers. I thus grew up knowing that the worst that could happen to me was death. Every day as I went to sleep, I worried that I would not see the sun again. Funny enough, I could wake up in the middle of the night to check whether I was still there. I would pinch hard my skin or slap myself to confirm that I was still alive.
Time passed but I held on tightly to my worry habit until it became part of me. I worried that I would get sick, and sometimes I really got sick. One day I remember being taken to a prime hospital for treatment. To my astonishment, the doctor only asked me a few questions. Without any tests or prescription, the doctor said I needed to go home and “stop worrying”. I hated him.
My worry habit continued and almost wrecked my health. However, one day I came across Dale Carnegie’s masterpiece, “How to Stop Worrying and Start Living”. The five hours I took to read the book made more sense to me than what I had learned all the other days of my life. The book taught me that nothing in itself is final. It taught me that even if I were to lose everything I had, I would regain it all back and even more. As long as I have my health intact, there is nothing to worry about. Even if my health failed for a time, I would still not worry about it much because all I would need to do is to shift my attitude of mind. The book also taught me that all that we worry about rarely comes to pass, and so worrying is a waste of time. Better still, I learned to accept the inevitable; to always admit that “it is so, and cannot be otherwise”.
Today, as I write this short story about my worrying, I am full of health and vitality. Nothing worries me. I do not have to worry about what to tell my girlfriend; if anything, I “worry” about when to stop telling her the stories she enjoys listening to. Death that used to worry me so much never bothers me. For what is death but a long sleep that we will all enjoy.